Anxious feelings & supportive friends

Well, June 23rd was the day I chose to tell my mom about me being pregnant. I was going to wait until after my first prenatal appointment on June 24th, but I knew I needed to tell her ASAP. I had met with a friend on June 23rd for lunch and after our conversation, I knew I needed to tell my mom right away. I told my mom later that afternoon. My mom wasn't happy. She was sad, disappointed, shocked, and of course felt as if my life was over. It has been a week since I told her and she's handling things much better. The first few days were hard, but now, she is just making sure I'm feeling okay and wants things to go as smooth as possible. I'm glad I told my mom when I did, but I was definitely VERY anxious up until June 23rd. It's much harder when you live with the person!

I definitely feel very blessed at this time in my life. I have always felt blessed in my life, but now, more than ever, it's definitely more than I deserve. All of my friends have been wonderful and all of them have been nothing but supportive. Since I am pregnant out of wedlock, no one is exactly clapping their hands and bringing out balloons, but nevertheless, all of them are supportive and are there for me when I need them. This is definitely an important time in my life when I need all of the support I can get, so I am VERY thankful. I have the best friends in the world! Everyone, including my mom, has reacted better than I thought they would. Yay! : )

A New Life

At 7:45 p.m. on June 9, 2008, little did I know that my life would change forever. The usual first signs were there and I had a feeling I was pregnant, but was trying to ignore that feeling. The fact I was trying to ignore my gut feeling may be why I refused to go to Longs for 9 days. At 8 p.m. on June 9, 2008, I saw the two lines, just like you see above, and about had a heart attack. I was a wreck. I told my best friend Mary first and then my good friend Yvette. I went immediately the next morning to get a blood test to be positive. I was going crazy the whole day at work and couldn't concentrate ---- for obvious reasons. I received a phone call at 3:30 p.m. with the "no joking, this is serious, life-changing news"; "You're pregnant." Then, there was a multitude of questions afterwards, one of them being about making the first appointment. I could barely function, let alone try to picture my monthly calendar in my head. It took me about 2 days to finally get over the fact that yes, I am really pregnant, and everything will be okay.

I know that being unmarried and pregnant isn't really the vision of any woman's life and while I am quite aware that what I did was wrong, I have taken the positive perspective on this situation.

1. Children are a gift from God.

2. Children are a blessing.

3. God will never give us anything we can't handle.

4. Everything works together for the good of those who love Him.

Those are just a few of the statements that run through my mind every day. I have wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember. This was obviously not my ideal situation for myself, nor was this planned (obviously!), but I must deal with what was given to me. I am SO excited about having a baby and everything that goes along with it. There are of course challenges, just like any other situation, but I know I can get through anything. If you know me well enough, you know that I have been through a lot in my 20 years and I have no doubt that I will make it through this!!

So after June 9, 2008, my next step was to tell my parents. I had told the father, John, that same night. I wasn't worried about telling my stepdad as he is usually pretty laid back, but my Mom was another story.

In reference to my title for this post, there is a new life growing inside of me and I, as of June 9, 2008, also have a new life. Even though my new life as a mother technically doesn't start until the baby is born, I must start eating right, drinking TONS of water, limit my caffeine intake, etc.

I can't wait until my first appointment!! But before then, I must tell my mother. How will she react? Stay tuned to find out!