To my daughter - Elliana Grace

Well, even though it was too early to know what I was having, I'm convinced it was a girl. The name I had picked out was Elliana Grace. So here is a short letter to my baby girl and a song by Watermark that has given me much relief and comfort.

Thursday, July 23, 2008

These past few days have been a blur. I can't believe you're gone. I loved you since the beginning. I wanted nothing, but the best for you. I wanted to give you the world. It hurts so bad. I won't be able to hold you in my arms and experience all of the wonderful things that come with having a child. Even your name sounded like a miracle to me. You were so very loved. Here's a song for you - 'Glory Baby'.

Glory Baby, You slipped away
As fast as we could say baby, baby
You were growing, what happened, Dear,
You disappeared on us baby, baby
Heaven will hold you before we do, Heaven will keep you safe
Until we're home with you, until we're home with you

Chorus:
We miss you everyday, miss you in every way
But we know there's a day when we will hold you, we will hold you
And you'll kiss our tears away, when we're home to stay
We can't wait for the day when we will see you, we will see you
But baby let sweet Jesus hold you, 'til mom and dad can hold you
You'll just have Heaven before we do, you'll just have Heaven before we do

Sweet little baby, it's hard to understand it 'cause we are hurting, we are hurting
But there is healing and we know we're stronger people through the growing and in knowing
All things work together for our good and God works his purposes
Just like He said He would, just like He said He would

(chorus)

I can't imagine Heaven's lullabies and what they must sound like
But I will rest in knowing Heaven is your home
It's all you'll ever know, it's all you'll ever know